I_HATE_JOHN_CALVIN [she/her]
you know how in like cartoon or sitcoms there will be an event for the episode but by the end everything is back to square one and nothing has changed? That’s where I’m at in life, no matter how hard I try everything goes back to how it was
no matter how hard I try I have to fight the same anxieties and worries over and over and over again. Once I think I make progress and become happier with my appearance, it fades away and I have to deal with the same dysphoria and anxiety that I thought I already beat
every battle that’s been fought has to be won again in the future, over, and over, and over, and over again
how is anyone not constantly drunk and/or high, like how do you just take it all
get me out of this hell hole
back to drinking on week days too
The outfit I’m wearing today makes me look like I’m someone’s mom
Date canceled on me, I have a group presentation today that one of the members isn’t showing up for, I feel like shit because I stayed up hours later than I normally do stress-eating, feels like I’m backsliding once again on social anxiety shit