i probably sound dumb but i think i’m an alcoholic. i refuse to stop drinking unless i’m blacked out. i won’t drink unless i’m blacking out. i’ve also had to go to the hospital for throwing up blood. i also occasionally have to call out of work. i just turned 24 two days ago and prior to 2022, i never ever drank. 2022 was an awful year for me and so i said “fuck it” and went all out.
i guess i’m “clean” during the week, idk
You need help stopping and there is help available. I quit drinking a few years ago after realizing I was an alcoholic. You need to stop before you body forces you to stop.
With some effort, support, and planning I was able to not drink for a year straight. And have since been able to have a drink without having too much or wanting more.
It isn’t easy but neither is liver issues.
Figure out what drives you to drink and avoid it. I cut friends that I liked to drink around. Quit a well paying job because it stressed me out. I took a few weeks off after I quit and kinda reset and finally had found my major trigger.
Anyway you can get a handle on it.
I wasn’t a black out drunk, mainly cause it didn’t take much to make me drunk, but I couldn’t stop once I started either. First I hold out on drinking during the week, then I’d have drinks on the evening, then a drink before work then decided to quit before it got further out of hand.
I hope you find the motivation to quit cause honestly drinking is such a waste of time. I genuinely believe all you need is to believe you can.
I’ve been there before.
Gotta get help. Gotta get therapy. Alcohol does have a strong physical/chemical dependency that forms on long term abuse, however the source of what drives you to abuse chemicals is always something deeper.
Get the help. It’s worth it not to feel paper thin.
