I used to play games, but now I only think about the time I’m wasting. I used to like food, but now I only think about how many calories are in it. I’d rather watch a TV show I’ve seen a million times than watch anything new. I read about a book a month but the minutes before I pick up the page feel like procrastinating a shower when the hot water is busted. I did a lot of exercise this week but now I’m left wondering if it was really worth the oxygen.
It… didn’t used to be like this. I’d be happy just going to school, playing games until way too late, talking to my online friends and doing the same thing the next day. Maybe it’s because back then I had graduation in mind as a long term objective. But now, the only certainty left for me is the inevitable fate of every living creature. I’m lonely. At school you’re forced to meet the same 30-100 people every day, but I’ve never been worth going out of anyone’s way. I have almost no social contacts that charge my battery rather than deplete it.
I feel like I should keep trying new things. But honestly, all that’s good in my life was given to me by chance (or a deity if you believe in one). Every time I have actively tried to better things it either changed nothing or made things worse. I’m so tired.
Has anyone “been there” and turned the ship around?
Hey man. I don’t have much advice because I’m going through basically this exact same thing. It feels like my life is falling apart, and trying to put it back together just makes things worse.
Sorry I can’t be more helpful
It feels like my life is falling apart, and trying to put it back together just makes things worse.
Been there, done that. It sucks to always fall back down after crawling out of the hole you’re in but you mustn’t stop trying. Maybe stop for a moment and look back who you were and reflect who you are now. Never stop trying to improve yourself and the things you care about and the former will let you be in awe
I know you can do it ❤️ you have to. And you should know it aswell
