Been into sissy porn, captions, etc for a few years. Ever since the pandemic I started to consume more porn and started to really crave being a sissy, suck a cock and being fucked. It got to the point where I opened a kik and started flirting with men online to make them cum.
Given how much fun and horny that made me I finally caved and decided to get grindr, message a few men until one made me feel safe enough and we agreed to meet up on his lunch break. He came over, pulled his cock out, I got on my knees and began to suck. I was a proper porn whore, his cock was all sloppy from my spit by the time he finished in my mouth and I drank it all.
I’m not exactly having regrets but I also don’t feel anything in particular. Like it felt hollow, my cock never even got hard during the blow job (though I did make a wet spot in my panties). I don’t know if I just hyped it up too much in my head because of all the hypno and captions saying I would feel addicted. So now I’m just wondering if I really am a sissy or this was just a fantasy that should be kept online. Any opinions or insights are appreciated
My read on this is that it was a quick and impersonal hookup with the only goal essentially being a quickie during lunch to get their rocks off.
I get how a lot of captions and fantasies out there are about being objectified, used, and “thrown away”, but I’m of the belief that foreplay and teasing needed if you truly want to enjoy yourself.
Give it another try but instead of a quick blowjob during a lunch break where you immediately get on your knees, how about some clothed kissing and teasing before you ultimately get on your knees and service the cock.
