So like, I’m one of those live with parents no college super autistic basically unable to function on my own type of NEETs and a lot of places on the internet tend to be pretty hostile if you admit to that or try to be happy about “minor accomplishments” in their eyes so I just wanna share it here instead cause y’all so nice.

Ever since the start of Covid I’ve been making really good progress on being more independent and taking care of myself and my body. Twice a week I go to the park now and just walk around (with plenty of sunscreen if course!) and I’ve been able to branch off of just junk food and eat more fruits and veggies. Like I never knew brocolli could taste so good with just a little bit of olive oil and seasoning. I even found a way to make some light money online filling out like, university studies and stuff. It’s actually pretty good pay (it’s a UK site and most of them are at/above UK min wage so even transferring to USD it’s still well worth the time) but obviously not reliable enough to make as a job even if I wanted to. But having a little bit of money to myself to use as I want is a huge help.

Also been looking into those Section 8 vouchers and trying to get on disability and maybe even be able to live at my own place near my parents. Even signed up for the local community college and got a little bit of financial aid. God bless the Pell grant, imma get myself some clothes I’ve been wanting maybe or anything else I can figure out how to paint as “necessary for my education” since it’s just free money. I don’t plan on getting a job either in the end even if I managed to somehow get a degree so imma just use it how I want.

All in all I feel like I’ve been doing a whole lot better. I can see it in my parents face too, everytime I’ve looked at them since I was about 20 even I could tell they basically “gave up” on me but they seem so happy and supportive. It’s actually kinda upsetting in its own right, makes me feel like I’m apparently of more value to them if I’m productive but I also know it’s because they want me to have a good life and they’ve been trained by society to view that in a particular way so I’m not mad.

Oh yeah also since my dad helped me get my legal name changed a bit ago, my classes will be the first time I’m out at some major thing like this getting to present as myself. I even felt bad about having to do this so late in my life but apparently I’m the average age of community college students at 28 so I might be able to fit in well! I’m used to lying about my life to cover up all the issues I have so I’m hoping I’ll be able to fit in well enough. And if not, oh well fuck them anyway I suppose I’m good enough for me and that’s what matters.

Hell even smaller things I’ve been getting better at like getting used to the feeling of makeup on my face which when I first tried it a few years ago was too overstimulating.

Thank you Hexbear for being such a great site that I feel comfortable talking about these embarrassing things. I love you all <3