I know this has to be a common thing or at least I assume it to be but whenever I hear people talk about ADHD they describe the procrastination but also mention that usually their anxiety/fear of missing a due date pushes them to do it last minute and I just don’t feel this. I never feel that anxiety about missing and assignment and I don’t get that extra motivation to do it so it usually doesn’t get done. Then when it doesn’t get done I say oh no and move on, doesn’t cross my mind until I look at my grades and wonder how this could have possibly happened.
Idk where I’m going with this but it is a behavioral pattern I noticed about myself and don’t like. I think it originated from gradeschool because I was able to get by without doing any homework so I trained myself to not care about those but thats mainly speculation.
Anyone know how to idk mitigate this? I can’t be the only one
Unfortunately this isn’t a one and done type thing. Are you in the US? I had to fight like hell to get my symptoms recognized for what they are, but its easier when you are younger. I know its like a self defeating thing, but these feelings are really complex. And outside observers, even trained ones, can’t see it. Honestly I think that Mental Health Therapy, the therapists aren’t doing the job that we think they are. I don’t know how to explain it…its like these are usually very conscientious professionals, but their job has all these weird contradictory rules. The best therapists seem to be the ones who either 1. Have a specific psychiatric focus that they follow more closely than, but doesn’t contradict with, established MH practice 2. Are savvy enough to know which rules to bend, and a philosophy about why. Unfortunately you can’t know the second one until you get to know them. Do some of your own research and start using mh terminology. Find out if your therapist has a focus in the thing that you think is what you are experiencing, and make sure that they really do. Its different going to someone who has a general focus than someone with a specific focus on ADHD for example.
Anyway I’ll stop info dumping at you. I’m on a couple of non narcotic meds and I’m like way more productive. I have bandwidth for a job, and personal development, hobbies, organizing, and a social life. Its like i still have all of my strengths but fewer of the severe struggles. I don’t lose time as much as I used to, and my thoughts are much more organized.
I am in the US, yeah. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and autism and stuff. I’m on some meds, I have Adderall and stuff. But lately it’s felt like it’s not doing anything.
