“The results of this evaluation are indicative of autism spectrum disorder.”
Never before have I been so relieved and yet so dismayed to read such a sentence.
Knowing yourself better is never bad. Even if what you find isn’t necessarily what you want, you have a path forward.
That is true. I guess some part of me was wishing that I was actually normal all along and that my differences were only in my head.
I guess now I need to learn how better to live with this.
Try to see it the other way round. I was always considered smart but lazy and distracted. I always struggled with myself because I thought I wasn’t living up to my potential because I was lazy and couldn’t mobilize enough willpower to succeed. That always stressed me out even more. Now that I know I am autistic and most people with my profile are not even able to work at all, let alone get a university degree, I can instead be proud of what I achieved. Just take it as an opportunity to be kinder to yourself.
It’s absolutely eerie how the description you make of yourself fits me. I am all the more determined to consult and make sense of this. Thanks for sharing
