So I bought a Happy Lamp, which is one of those sunlight lamps meant to help with Seasonal Affective Disorder. I’ve used it for two days in a row, and it feels like it’s replaced my SAD with super ramped up ADHD symptoms. This is totally anecdotal, and could be other factors. I’m rebounding from covid, so maybe it’s my store of energy from being super duper sedentary, but I am usually pretty sedentary and that hardly ever happens. But holy hell it’s been a wild two days.
Typically I’m pretty fatigued, always feeling like nappin’, distracted while working and very, very unmotivated.
Since using the lamp, I feel like I have a ton of energy. I worked from home today and yesterday. I could NOT SIT STILL either days. Yesterday I had no caffeine, but I was up every five minutes or so, pacing, making food, thinking of things to clean or put away, fuck around on Hexbear, etc. Normally when I’m distracted I’ll just stay in one place, or if I get up it’s not nearly to the extreme that it has been. My brain also felt on overdrive, thoughts going a million miles a minute, multi-tasking on accident, getting up again, etc. But ended up being more productive than I had been in a while. Then today I had caffeine and that doubled the intensity. Sometimes caffeine doesn’t work on me at all, other times it’s way intense. But yeah, same stuff today, except feeling so out of control that I double checked my bottle of lamictal to make sure I didn’t accidentally take my ADHD meds (I didn’t). Jaw is still feeling tight, but I’m not clenching.
What the hell, guys, are these ADHD-Hyperactive symptoms? Cuz I am…on one and I don’t know if I like it. Maybe it’s a fluke, maybe it’s a placebo, maybe my body will adjust but it is intense.
Honestly, I’m not sure. I feel pretty agitated, the energy is almost too much, but Im so tired of being tired all the time! It almost felt like i was needing to quit my job be ause i just couldnt do it and dont want to get fired.
It very well may be thay I’m just in a hypomanic upswing regardless of the light, so maybe I should just take a couple days off of using it to test.
