Tbh, I’d much rather be neurotypical or at least have resources to actually help me. Unfortunately that’s not an option so I’m doing the best I can.
I’m so sorry you’re wishing to be someone else. YI imagine you must experience significant difficulties to get there. Still, I’m happy you have the motivation to continue making changes in your life so you could be happy. If you find anything useful, please share so that us other autists can learn about it :)
Thank you! I don’t really wish to be someone else. I just spent the first 20 years of my life being told and thinking I was stupid, lazy and incapable of making friends. The next 20 years were spent masking extremely well and passing for “normal”, except for those total breakdowns every couple of years when I couldn’t really eat, sleep or communicate for a few weeks. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, PTSD etc. but the meds and therapy didn’t really help that much. Finally I got a new therapist, a young one, fresh from uni and full of new information and ideas and after reading my file she made me take tests for ADHD and autism. Both were pretty conclusive but she’s not licensed to diagnose it. I got diagnosed with ADHD almost two years ago and got meds and better help but there’s still a lot of grief for all the years that could have been better and that’s what makes me wish to be different sometimes.