Sometimes I feel like Iām the only person on Lemmy that didnāt hate high school. Maybe Iām just a crazy person, but I generally got along with most people.
I recall girls asking me to cosplay and i mostly just was interested in the anime they shared and then i met L from death note when they showed me that and thatās probably about when i started realizing i wasnāt exactly straight, i feel bad for them though. I really didnāt understand anything about my feelings as a kid, I just hope that the future is better for queer kids down the line. I wish i had understood myself soo much earlier, it would have helped avoid soo much pain, and misunderstanding and miscommunication. I didnāt realize a lot of girls were into me, but now I do, and while itās not really my fault, I know the pain of one sided romantic attraction. So I still feel really bad. I also might have been able to stay with my first boyfriend for longer if I had understood that one can be romantically attracted to someone without being sexually attracted. Yes, I am asexual.
School wasnāt the hard part, it was not understanding i was queer and I never fit any of the things people said were valid, that part is what made school hard for me. Along with my mental differences as well.
In middle school, a girl in my class asked me out on a date while all her friends sat in the back and watched, giggling.
I told her to leave me the fuck alone.
During recess, I saw her sitting by herself, crying.
Feels bad, man.
You were a kid, and only saw in binary: either she was saying the truth which you probably thought was unlikely ,or she was lying, which you thought were more likely. You knew the more likely scenario brought with it a lot of pain, so you chose the easier option.
Not your fault. I hope sheās doing better though.
Middle schoolers and high schoolers are so fucking mean
Oh you fucked something up once in period 3 in June? Get ready to live it down for the rest of your school life
Fuck school man jesus christ
Something that may have been this happened to me in high school. A girl came up to me in the hall between classes and said something along the lines of wanting to ask me out or admit a crush or similar. I gave a confused look, then noticed what I took to be other girls behind her looking at us and giggling.
I told her ānow I get itā, that her friends put her up to it. And I left.
Iāll never know if I was right, or if they were giggling because they were teenagers and she finally got the courage, or if they were even her friends.
For my own benefit I have chosen to believe I was right at the time.
It happened to me too I later figure out they were her backup plan if I answered that I wouldnāt go with her at the āāpromāāā¦ I felt so bad, she was actually kinda cute but I always has this 6th sense for people laughing behind my shoulders ā¦ I noticed her friends and bodied her ā¦ never saw her againā¦ So sad ā¦