Like sometimes I’ll make a post and I go back and I reread it and I’m like somebody way smarter than me wrote this, and sometimes I’ll go back and reread it and wonder how the fuck was I so stupid as to write this?
Is that the way it is for you also, or am I just weirder than the average person?
When I go back to read the stuff I write I think mostly “damn that guy sounds like a psycho”
Yes. Mostly about the “I can’t believe I wrote that”. What you’re doing is self-reflection, and that’s a good thing. It’s good that you can recognize things you’ve said before that you’ve learned from. I don’t feel like enough people do this.
“I’m a jack of all trades, master of none,” type of person. Most of the time old posts are a reflection of how far I have come, but occasionally they are a fun reminder of how deep I got down some rabbit hole in the past. I like it when they remind me of some detail I wouldn’t easily remember.
Most of the time I find them a little bit introspectively cringe, maybe a little less than they did a decade ago or more. I hope the reflective cringe is always the case, because to me, that means I continue to grow.
For me it’s less about smarter/dumber, and more about the way that I convey my ideas. I see older posts and sometimes I say “damn, I should write more like this”; sometimes “this is a fucking mess, I should’ve clarified better”.
Sometimes I’m surprised by how eloquent I can sound.
I’m rarely surprised by how stilted and incoherent I can sound. I’m used to that.