(can’t sleep, here’s some writing. CW: death)

I got to go home early today. They do that when someone dies at work. It doesn’t happen often. Well it does happen often, but not where I work, which is why they just sent us all home. It seemed like they were just confused. Most of us would have kept working if the security guard hadn’t come around to our stations and told us the news. He was shrugging, everyone was. Someone upstairs was angry, but it was that bewildered kind of anger you hear from someone whose dog just walked across the tiles after rolling in shit.

Her name was Letitia, I think. I don’t know what her job was, but she wasn’t one of the sitting people like me. She had to walk from station to station, but not the way people in charge do. She looked backwards too much for that. I don’t want to think about her any more, but maybe I’m supposed to? I hope not.

Someone from my station got interviewed by the news. I think his name is Reginald. His friend always says “Ready, Reginald?” when they meet up to leave, but that’s also a line from a TV show. His friend always says it in this sing-song voice, and they don’t say it that way on TV, so that’s why I think it’s really his name. TV is so shit now, I think.

The news guy was asking the guy I think is called Reginald (can I call him Reg?) about the woman who I think is called Letitia. Well, not really about her, the reporter was doing some kind of segment about safety, and I’m guessing it’s yet another piece about Legitimate Steel. It gets a lot of bad press.

Not everyone is using Legitimate Steel yet, so I should probably explain. Legitimate Steel is unbreakable, right? Regular steel is pretty strong already, but sometimes it breaks and bends and stuff falls down. The way they explained it to me was that regular steel is always getting tested and scrutinized before it breaks apart, so they made Legitimate Steel, which is unbreakable because nobody looks at it.

You have to pass a few little tests before you get to work in my building, since it’s the first workplace constructed entirely out of Legitimate Steel. They have to make sure you can walk on it without looking at it first, but that’s not too hard. The one most people fail is the second test, where they hold up a plate of it in front of you and you have to be able to not see it. It’s not too hard to do, but that’s just my experience. The younger hires don’t always pass that one.

Some people, like the reporter who was interviewing Reg (I think?), really just don’t get it. He kept asking how we can work in a “place like this.” Like I said, he just didn’t get it. It would have been worth a laugh if someone hadn’t just died.

Again, I think her name was Letitia. I really shouldn’t be thinking about her this much. I definitely should not be thinking about how she was getting phone calls a lot over the last week, or how pale she looked when she was on the phone for the fifth time today. And I really fucking don’t need to be thinking about that moment when I saw her looking down, right through six floors of pure Legitimate Steel, before she dropped.