CombatLiberalism [he/him]
I CAME HERE AS SOON AS I HEARD
The dark energies that escaped his body upon his death took out my power and I was in the dark (literally) until now
I’m untreated at the moment, it hits me hard but I’ve somehow managed to get really good at compartmentalizing it and separating the physical feeling from the mental spiral. I still feel it just as much as I always have and I’m not able to change that, but I can give my brain a little kick to make it stop the whole “this person hates you now and you were stupid for doing this” thought train, look at the situation objectively, and realize just how far from reality those thoughts are.
I do this for anxiety too, I can’t make myself less anxious but I can look at a situation that makes me anxious, realize that there’s no actual reason for it, and then go and do the thing. My heart still pounds and my hands still shake but I can have a good time anyway.
I wouldn’t call this just ignoring it, but I know I’m gonna feel like ass anyway and if I avoided every situation that makes me feel like ass I wouldn’t do anything at all. It sucks HARD though, I may be able to power through it but it’s fucking exhausting being in fight or flight for 99% of my day all while feeling like a ghost pokemon used curse on me every time someone uses a slightly harsh tone. I can logic it out to get things done but it doesn’t lessen the feeling at all.
Close enough to hear one and see it moving around but far enough away that it just looks like a blurry brown orb
exactly
These people pick up additional names throughout their life (both given and chosen) with no real upper-limit on the amount. Most mark big life occasions or important events but there’s also a non-insignificant number of joke/less serious names and some will just keep adding more and more names to seem more important/prestigious that they start sounding like something between someone trying to meet the word requirement of an essay and a rejected My Immortal character
I’m hitting a bit of a mental block trying to come up with names for a story I’m working on if anyone would like to help out a bit. The group I’m naming chooses a name at 18 generally based on things they wish for their future adult selves, such as goals they want to accomplish, traits and skills they want to cultivate, virtues they want to embody, things like that. I’ll take any suggestions and reply with what they would be in the language I have set up for these guys.
Silliness is encouraged, they’re in a conlang anyway and most people today don’t associate the name Peter with stone so I can handwave calling someone the equivalent of like Hog-Cranker 9000 if I like the name enough
So when are we going to have a Hexbear Vicky 3 multiplayer campaign where we dismantle the west and establish communism?
It looks like I’m finally going to get medicated for ADHD next week after checks notes 10 years of trying and failing to get treatment
Looking forward to actually executing my functions
