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It stimulates my brain, and I enjoy the randomness of it all. It’s like how in nature things can be perfectly imperfect - random and still beautiful - unintentional and still emotion-inducing. Sure, I see the ethical issues with how an AI is trained and how capitalism cares more about profit than people leading to job loss or exploitation; however, those are separate issues in my mind, and I can still find joy in the random output of an AI. I could easily tunnel on the bad parts of AI and what’s happening as the world devours a new technology, but I still see benefits it can bring in the medical research and engineering fields.
You’ll find that in queer culture, there’s not just top/bottom but a wide spectrum to define or describe preferences; I’m sure this all also applies to the BDSM world as well. There’s a variety of tops and bottoms and preferences like Bambi lesbians who don’t want sexual dynamics beyond cuddling and kissing.
After an incredibly emotional and difficult couple weeks, this week was a relief. I was invited to a girl’s night with pumpkin painting and nostalgic Halloween movies (Nightmare Before Christmas, Hocus Pocus, etc). Just soooo thankful to have some super supportive women in my life 🥹. I’ve started to feel oddly lonely around my normal friend group - queer men who are very supportive and who I love, but idk… there’s just been this growing disconnect inside me lately. The way they talk, try to comfort, connect… I’ve been feeling guilty about it, but I feel worse ignoring my feelings and trying to force myself to be somewhere I don’t want to be. Like, how does the girl at the coffee shop I visit throughout the week know exactly how to comfort me, pick me up, include me, and make me feel seen, but my long-time friends don’t 😭
Oh! I’ve also been playing Infinity Nikki and losing it over how cute and cozy the story, world, and clothes are! Suuuper recommend it!!
The combination might not be causing nausea, but nausea is a potential side effect with Lamotrigine. When I was being treated for Bipolar Disorder, I had to switch mood stabilizers due to random vertigo spells. I hope it’s something else if you’ve been feeling stable (mentally) with your current prescriptions since changing psych medications is a huge pain!
I’m a little over 6 months on hrt and haven’t noticed any appetite changes. I’ve actually been eating far less and more sporadically. I was eating for performance reasons pre-transition, so I’d say I’m eating more normally. How are you receiving/dosing your estrogen? I use patches, but I could see fluctuating hormones from injections/pills affecting appetite.
I hope your appointment goes well! If things don’t click, I suuuper recommend Folx Health. It’s an online doctor service, and you never have to do anything in person outside the blood work. They made the process so easy- one appointment over video chat, and then boom, pharmacy had my hrt the same day. Good luck!!
I still really enjoy Phasmophobia and all the games which came out after that have similar mechanics/gameplay. The Dark Pictures games are all really great experiences. There’s also indie games like Little Nightmares and Dredge! Alan Wake, Outlast, Still Wakes the Deep… Honestly there’s been so many amazing ones which have come out. For days/nights where you want a lighter experience, the Observation Duty type games can be fun!
Last time I had my eye appointment I asked for both prescriptions (since I guess they are different sometimes). Got a 3 month supply of contacts since I only use them when I go out and maybe go out 3 days a week, and some nice prescription glasses online. Now the real thing I’m after… Lasik. I had transitions for a year or two, but got so tired of wearing them when I was out for the day with friends- walk outside, fine, go in a shop…dark. By the time we’re done in the shop they’ve just started to fade, then back outside and it’s too bright… repeat 😵💫 I even paid for the ‘quick’ transitions.
The interview process is what is causing me the most anxiety right now. Lost my job at the end of June, and I KNOW I need to be looking harder, but I’m just dreading the whole interview process. I’ve been procrastinating like crazy…I just don’t want to relearn a whole culture of a new team; it’s so mentally draining. 12 years somewhere and the idea that I have to start all over again…😭