Yeah, I always play as a woman if I can. This made sense to me because ‘every guy wants to be a girl’ but this is apparently not the case and is actually a pretty eggy thought.

Fair enough. I’ll have to see what’s available in my area.

Kind of, I guess. I play games or read but they’ve mostly become something to pass time these days.

I have read people saying it happened to them but it does seem like a ymmv type of thing. Since I went through puberty I’ve felt pretty empty and disconnected so I’m hoping HRT will be able to do some heavy lifting for me in that regard.

I don’t really mind the labels transgender or lesbian. I think I’m just really in my head about it. It’s barely been 2 months since I’ve learned anything about dysphoria so this is pretty new to me. I am taking steps to start transitioning but it’s daunting to think about still.

I was just so miserable even though I should have been happy

I can relate to this. I know objectively I’m not in a bad place but I just feel passively awful all the time. I think I’ve felt euphoria just from imagining the kinds of clothes I’d wear if I transitioned. It was a positive kind of rush that doesn’t compare to how I usually feel in the slightest. I guess I’m not doubting that I’m trans so much as I am restless to actually transition. I am in an awkward place atm but hopeful that I’ll be able to start HRT in the a couple years at most. Did you get any kind of mood boost just from hormone therapy itself? I am not opposed to socially transitioning, I am just not sure how helpful it could be on its own.

oh yeah, its time to get :3

oh for sure. Incredibly cis, no doubt about it :)

I haven’t started HRT but the few accounts I’ve read from those who have it seems like a ymmv kind of thing. Regardless of how the ‘performance impact’ hits you personally everything I’ve read (admittedly not a lot) indicates that it doesn’t become completely unusable but will (might?) require more work than before.

Gosh I’d love some emotional depth 🥺. The boobs and softer skin too, of course.