I miss talking to people but I’m finding it kind of stresses me out, on top of being a problem for my focus/time management skills. I’m such a fucking mess person, I’m less high strung and weird but the edges of my sense of self, the firmness of my self image, start to soften and go wobbly without other people. Socialising, talking, “You” is also the reflection of yourself in other people, what they see of you. I am without reflections to ponder and my brain is very very weird at this minute.

I get this. I’ve struggled with social anxiety my entire life and talking to people and being around them is difficult and draining but I start to get depressed if I go too long without talking to anyone