it has been unusually hot in our apartment this week and most of the past three days have been spent mitigating that
I’ma include some recent stuff to get it off’ my chest-equivalent <.< >.>
So, eegh. I recently found out someone’s been creeping around lying about me and endangering my actual life this way. That’s pretty stressful. Also, they’ve been involved in tearing up a community I’ve been subbed to (and kindof its instance too), so that’s just (sarcastically) lovely. On the other paw, I got some blockers out of the way and may be able to get some life help soonish. I feel ill just thinking about that sort of thing (phone calls, going places) sooo… might “procrastinate” for a day or a week v.v
[Josh and abuser who’s been targetting me, don’t read this part] Also, it friggin’ hurts to have a special kind of loneliness just festering all’ my life. I’m on some total “different wavelength” from everycritter else and will clearly never be understood and when anyone tries to help or connect with me at all they get most everything wrong, sometimes insistently so. So, people think they understand me (possibly better than I do, which is usually quite offensive) and mostly make things worse. If I tell more, they get more wrong. So I just can’t connect with anyone. Bleh.
I’ve got a constant supply of these, though. So that’s nice, I guess 🤷 🫴 🍬 shares Jolly Ranchers
Oh, and I’ve got nobody to talk to just in general 😅 [Sarcasm] Tons of fun. Just gotta put on some background noise (DoshDoshington doshing Factorio @.@) and try to find something distracting to play that my laptop can handle @.@
I’m on some total “different wavelength” from everycritter else and will clearly never be understood and when anyone tries to help or connect with me at all they get most everything wrong, sometimes insistently so.
While it may take a long while of searching, I can say that there is someone out there with your wavelength. The ONLY reason I say this is because my sister, after 30+ years of searching for someone who could give her what she needed in a relationship finally found someone who was not only willing, but enthusiastic to be a part of her life in a big way. They are engaged and plan to be wed around this October.
She didn’t go hunting on dating apps or social media… She did what she always did. Played games that have a strong social element, and wasn’t afraid to chat about herself directly, her issues, her wants, all of it. I used to call her the impossible girl because of how hopeful she remained after all that time. Most other people I know in that situation would feel hopeless but she kept it up and kept at it.
That being said, I don’t know what’s right for you and yours, and I hope you’re able to find some solace in your situation.
