You are still riddled with liberalism as a philosophy, regardless of your stated desires to end capitalism. It’s a framework within which you’ve learned literally everything up until you read works from feudal peoples or Marxists. But even pre-maexist/pre-liberalism works have been absorbed by liberal context and reinterpreted through that lens. You are still here.

Stalin wrote about anarchism as an idea which exists in every socio-economic system. It’s what happens when someone is part of that system but wanting to be independent of it. We don’t just want independence from capitalism, but the overthrow of it, and that’s why we are Marxists. I think there are anarchists (mostly only ever seen here on hexbear) that are real comrades which Stalin’s analysis missed, those that see the crushing of the state needing to happen and be pushed for faster. I fully agree but think patience is a better tactic unfortunately.

You are not that though, you are just the kind Stalin talked about