The end of my faith was realizing God’s either all powerful but not all good, or all good but not all powerful. It was 10 years ago and after the initial grief period, things have only gotten clearer and better since.
Epicurus’s old questions are yet unanswered. Is he willing to prevent evil, but not able? then is he impotent. Is he able, but not willing? then is he malevolent. Is he both able and willing? whence then is evil?