I’m glad to finally read someone that’s say something real. Its all about lying, yes I educate myself and I even try to fake a fair enough resumee. I realize this is the only way to hope for something. I don’t have special abilities, not good at math, coding boring me. I try a lot of thing in this life, I am in a training program now, but things move slowly, I’m 35, I should have a wife by now, an happy place called home, but looks so far away, looks even that I lost the train to having that life. Feeling already old even if I do nothing, life ask things I dont have. Stupid things like a car, I don’t want it, I don’t like it, but people want me to have it. This example apply to everything. In order to have something I wish for I need to want something I don’t like, that’s so stupid and I feel bad.
Let me in on another secret, I didn’t find success until 40. Took me a good 5 years to get out of my parents home. Now I have a wife and a son. I’m super happy now at 45. Don’t compare yourself to others. Fuck other people. It’s your life, not theirs.
I have a diagnosed mental disability and have a hard time with staying focused on things like work. Also, I hate my job. I’m just fucking good at it(thanks to YouTube). But I enjoy 3D printing and taking photos but not good enough to make it a career. My well paying boring job funds my life and my family and at 5pm, I mentally peace out of work and completely ignore all emails.
Life is what you make of it. You’re not an NPC in a game. You’re the main character. I’m just a random NPC that was in your shoes and letting you know there is hope.