Yeah, I’m doing quite similar, but I will try to do a PhD, and I want to do some kind of remote software worker coop because I know machine learning, still after I started applying for normal jobs I figured fuck that shit that you have to fight for them to exploit you. For now I can survive by remote math + programming tutoring.
For a lot of people their chains are the reason for their “success”, if you tell them to destroy the chains to get free they will deem you a madman.
Yeah so I edited my comment like 5 times cause I felt so insecure voicing all this, cause I did get a lot of pushback from pretty much anyone I know and ridiculed before even online. So I was afraid they are right, so far it works for me though and I went from suicidal to alright, just from working less.
I hope you can make your coop work, seems like a cool idea too, though it‘s also so hard for small business, a friend of mine has one and it‘s almost like he is his own king and he isn‘t kind to himself either, mainly cause the competition is so fierce.
Maybe try finding other anarchists near you? On average they should be less obsessed with workerism, maybe you can cooperate with them on some project, at least you will be less socially isolated because unfortunately social isolation is very harmful - which is one of the biggest issues with changing even clearly oppressive systems like our states/capitalism. Even though you may behave rationally, other people may take their suffering as a badge of honor and deem you not worthy of their respect just because you have better perspective on exploitation of the current system. If you are in Europe you may be interested in attending big anarchist congress in St Imier, Switzerland: https://anarchy2023.org/
