another slightly late thread but i have been busy for most of today. learning about some arcane internet drama, also reading some books. currently on The Storm Is Here–this will be book 41 for the year when i finish it.
I feel incredibly restless at my job and it’s everything I can do to not stand up and just leave for good. I’m paid essentially minimum wage in a dead end job at a ブラック企業… But I’m so burnt out on job searching for months on end and terrified to return to unemployed life. I haven’t touched my hobbies for months and I’m… I’m just so tired. God damn…
That’s terrible. Wishing you the best of luck to find a fulfilling job.
(For those curious like me) ブラック企業
A black company (ブラック企業, burakku kigyō), also referred to in English as a black corporation or black business, is a Japanese term for an exploitative, sweatshop-type employment system.
While the term “sweatshop” is associated with manufacturing, and the garment trade in particular, in Japan black companies are not necessarily associated with the clothing industry, but more often with office work.
While specifics may vary from workplace to workplace and company to company, a typical practice at a black company is to hire a large number of young employees and then force them to work large amounts of overtime without overtime pay. Conditions are poor, and workers are subjected to verbal abuse and “power harassment” (bullying) by their superiors.[1] In order to make the employees stay, superiors of black companies would often threaten young employees with disrepute if they chose to quit.
this is a tough week for me. i got laid off last week after working for 4 years at that company. there are so many things that i am excited to do, now that i have the time, but i am feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted from dealing with the layoffs that have been happening for months. it’s time for me to rest and recharge now, but i don’t quite know how to do that, so i’m trying to figure that out. i am struggling with a lot of self-doubt and a critical inner voice. it’s hard to stay kind and motivate myself when i feel this way.
Are you going to post your list of books read in 2023?? I’ve really been intrigued by every one you have mentioned. @alayza
Working almost every waking hour, struggling with migraines, and barely functioning. Things should slow down next week and I can hopefully begin to feel like a person again.
The week didn’t end too well, while coming back from the first store, my foot started hurting a bit, got worse when going to the 2nd store. Later at home while watching TV, getting up was actively painful, and I had to hobble.
The next day, I used nebenan.de (German nextdoor copycat) to borrow some crutches, and went to the doctor (which required taking the bus, Saturdays normal doctors are closed and the Anlaufpraxis is at the hospital, kinda a non-emergency emergency room). I thought it was a sprained ankle, but apparently only similar and not that bad, no bleeding, and the swelling had already gone down. I got a zinc paste gauze bandage (apparently called Unna’s boot in English), that has to stay on for 3 days and can’t get wet (so no showering …)
It helped a bit and since Sunday afternoon I’ve only been needing one of the crutches which gives me a free hand, very convenient ;) This all results in my wife doing more chores, especially the dishes which, so far, has not resulted in disaster ;) I’m still cooking as that mostly works while standing mostly on my left foot.
I do miss running, but the doctor also told me I should probably get new running boots as the current ones are ancient (mostly unused, but material fatigue happens anyway) as that might be related. They should arrive tomorrow, but I’m not sure when I’ll be able to run again. Already missed dancing lessons this Sunday, the ones next Sunday will be the test if everything is fine, and I can start running again on Monday.
As you might be able to tell from this elaborate whining post, I really hate being sick ;)
As somebody who had chronic foot pain for over a year that finally got resolved, let me tell you: please listen to medical professionals! A few days or even a few weeks is nothing compared to half a year to a year of chronic pain and reduced physical activity. Grin and bear it for a little bit now so you aren’t paying for it exponentially later
Oh, I am. I’m still walking with a crutch, have not been dancing this Sunday, and always wear foot stabilization bandages …
Good for you and wishing you a speedy recovery :)
What kind of dancing, if I can ask? I used to teach Lindy Hop and other swing dances. I miss it! Need to get back out there.
