Feel free to let it all out!
Its been good but its been better. Im trying to reach a stable point with my home environment, and I’m getting really close. I probably have the same goals as many others in this thread and I dotn even wanna talk about it lest I jinx it, which I guess is what happened last year around this same date, I don’t really know.
Well I just got some new nail polish and painted my nails with trans pride colors and that was fun. I also tried some ghost pepper hot sauce today and that was less fun.
I was hosptitalized for severe suicidal thoughts late December due to my ex partner making me relive some childhood trauma. Now they rejected me again for new years celebration. At least with the year starting at its absolut worst, it can only get better right?
It’s one of those things where it’s good to really face it and to make a clear decision because it makes life easier if you know. It’s said that the decision to live or die is the most fundamental philosophical question.
And ya it’s definitely gonna get better! It’s just a temporary thing and it doesn’t define you.
Yeah, I working things out, my perspective on whats to come is pretty amazing compared to what shitshow I’m currently in, coming out to myself really helped and gave me my will to live back. It’s been really rough but I really think that I hit rock bottom already and I’m alredy getting out of my pit.
Reassurance is very helpful, thank you
Perhaps twenty years from now you’ll be in a garden drinking wine with someone you love, talking about what happened today.
It’s going ok. I keep talking myself into stalling next steps in my transition, specifically surgeries. Since I’m looking for another job, why bother even getting the process started right? Except I’ve been looking for another job in my field for the last year lol.
Otherwise ok. I’m excited to someday hopefully get eh surgeries I want to make me feel complete.
Happy new year! <3
