I’m brewing up ideas for a manga that incorporates trans stuff.
I want to add them at some point without resorting to stereotypes so I need some discussion regarding this here.
I never did. I feel like i cant decide if im a boy or a girl or a boy who just wants to wear lipstick. Im definatley comfortable with my body, but when it comes to social roles i hate anything about myself that is masculine. I kind of just wish i could be a girl but without boobs.
Femboy is an option, don’t worry. Not being transphobic or anything, just saying femboys are ok.
There was a long time where I was oversensitive to my anxiety and would be worried that people would call me transphobic when I wasn’t. I wonder if you are going through something similar. For me, it came from a fear of alienating all the people who I was close to but also didn’t understand. As I have become more comfortable with other people I have become less worried about that.
Why did I write such a long comment? Idk. I’ve done too many mystery pills. Back to writing. Nobodythinks you are transphobic. You seem nice. :D :D :D
If you hang out with lgbt people more, it gets easier. It’s obvious when people are distant/outside looking in and there’s a longing there. If those feelings aren’t healthy then people will notice. It’s best to learn as much as you can from people so that you can see them for who they really are and not just how you perceive them. It opens the door to being friends too! 😊
Also, nonbinary topics are something I think you could benefit from researching. It sounds like you might be nonbinary, and the enby community is huge, diverse, and has a million different ways of seeing gender. One of those might be what you’re looking for.
Gosh, it took a while.
When I was a teen I basically only had girl friends and mostly just thought of myself as a feminine guy. Sure I had long hair and wore cute clothes and tried makeup, but that was just for fun!
I kept that up for a decade, made a few trans friends, and realized my gender identity was kinda weird? I didn’t think I was trans, though, because I didn’t really experience dysphoria in a way other girls had explained it to me. I thought I felt fine?
And then I got hit by a car on my bike. I almost died! And then the pandemic started! So I’m thinking about what would happen if I died and it occurred to me I’d be buried as a man - that really bothered me on a fundamental level. I think that was the first time I understood the dysphoria I had always felt.
I was still confused, though.
So, it’s 2020 and I kept getting ma’amed when I wore a facemask and really liked it. Holy shit I liked it so much. I would get all smiley and any day it happened was guaranteed to be a good one. I started doing my hair more and wearing more makeup and training my voice and then- oh.
I started hormones that fall at 29
I never strongly identified with being a boy and in middle school people started coming out as trans so I realized that was a thing. I grew out my hair and nails but didn’t think I was trans. I eventually adopted a they pronoun and started worrying about becoming a masculine adult. I realized I like shorter shorts and conceptualized myself in a more fem way. I bought some makeup but I forget to wear it. At some point I started to think of my self primarily as trans-fem, but eventually realized I didn’t want to be a trans woman. Luckily my official label is still non-binary and I reminded myself that gender is a stupid social concept and there’s no reason to have to buy into a specific category for whatever reason. So, yeah I’m generally trans feminine non-binary and I don’t need to use a million hyper specific labels I found on Reddit.
I just reinforce my shell with another layer everytime it starts to crack. When I die and they autopsy me, I’ll look like a tree I’m sure.
id just generally been depressed most of my teens, eventually I had a breakdown when I was 18 and ordered hrt online like a few weeks after i was like ‘ok yeah I’m trans’ shit was stressful
im very glad I spent way too much time on 4chan growing up otherwise i would’ve waited years to get on hrt. e.g. r/transgenderuk was run by cis people at the time and actively hate mongered against diy hrt, a lot of the people on reddit were all like ‘TRUST YOUR DOCTOR’. mind you this was all like 5 or 6 years ago
