There’s so much stuff that would feel weird and stereotype-y to see someone else do and think, “they must be trans!” but when I think back on myself doing them, my only thought is, “oh, so that’s what that was about.”
SORTIR DU PLACARD
Bonuses from the thought:
-1 Authority: Exposed
-1 Composure: Volatile
+1 Pain Threshold: Been through worse
+1 Psyche: All pieces in place
You once suggested going “as a girl” for Halloween and didn’t understand why your father was so angry at the idea. Once you hit puberty, you began stuffing your shirt in secret to see what you would look like if you had breasts. You’ve penned an inordinate amount of terrible lesbian fanfiction, and always wondered why you never felt excluded when your fellow authors complained about men invading their women-only space. Your life could have been a lot easier if you’d realized this earlier — but it would have been far worse to never realize at all.
i remember one time little kid me asked my teacher if she could hook me up with some estrogen after she explained what it did to the body in sex ed. she laughed like it was a joke but i was dead serious
also a wild thing that happened to me is having a save for a game with my CURRENT NAME on it from like 2001 that i found recently. huge brainfuck because i didnt know i was trans at the time and i def didnt have a name decided on
i def didnt have a name decided on
something tells me you definitely did lmao
lol, I booted up a laptop I hadn’t touched in 8 years and opened up a game on my desktop and saw that the save file was my current name when I’ve only been using that name for like 3 years
My inspiration for this post: finding a playlist from when I was 14 that’s made up exclusively of tATu and Indigo Girls songs. All my friends were metalhead gamer bros and so was I, but for some reason I was baffled that they didn’t enjoy this playlist.
All my friends in highschool were girls, I was obsessed with body swap movies and retain extensive knowledge of cross gender body swap movies, I loved Ranma 1/2 and dunked cold water on my head (😬), I loved doing drag and had a normal girl name as my drag name that is now my legal name, I never could look at myself in mirrors or on video nevermind having to listen to myself in recordings, I hated shopping for dude clothes, I was really passionate about trans rights and knew trans women pathways for medicine cause I researched it a lot, etc.
I try to be nice to myself about missing all these until way after being an adult, I think I needed the stability and calmness much later to actually be able to crack my egg. Considering the schools I went to, places I lived, how my dad was, I don’t know if I would have survived before I had way more emotional maturity and resilience (and stability).
dunked cold water on my head (😬)
This is a trans thing? Could you please explain?
the main character of ranma 1/2 was born a boy but turns into a girl ()whenever splashed with cold water, and turns back with warm water
Lying about being a girl on the internet when I was like 12. Well, it’s confusing to look back on those days as a lie, but I certainly felt like I was lying at the time. I don’t even think I had a real justification for it at the time beyond just liking how it felt lol
