Hey everyone,
I [28F] need some advice on handling anxiety when job hunting.
Almost a week ago I finished school and I’m once again without work. I’ve been job hunting about 40-50% of my adult life and it has taken a huge toll on my mental health to the point where I’m barely able to apply for jobs anymore. I have gotten a few warnings over the years due to not applying to enough jobs. ( I live in Sweden btw )
I have tried taking breaks.
I have tried waiting for the anxiety to pass.
I have asked so many for advice but it’s like they all give the same default answer. If their advice where enough, I would be a pro at job hunting.
I did get an autism diagnosis a few years back and I do feel better about myself, more confident and understanding of how I work so I think this time around will be different, but it’s like the old anxiety still hangs around and I don’t know how to get rid of it.
Please if you have any advice, I’d love to hear it.
Have you analyzed what about job hunting specifically is giving you anxiety? EG is it a fear of rejection, something about compiling your life onto a CV, something else I can’t think of?
I don’t think any advice will be helpful unless you can identify what it is that is causing the anxiety.
I think it’s about how perfect and unique each application has to be. But there is only so much variation I can make.
I also think it’s about the bureaucracy itself, if something goes wrong I should have known. Always. because we don’t have civil service liability (as I understand it).
It’s like this whole thing gives me anxiety.
So it sounds like maybe your issues are a) needing to challenge your mental rules about the effort that is/isn’t required for the application and b) accepting things that are outside of your control.
For your first issue, why does every application have to be perfect and unique? Yes the general recommendation is to tailor your resume/CV for each role, but if that is causing you so much stress you can’t even apply then don’t. Maybe it would be better to come up with a template you can use for each application. For instance if you are applying for are cashier, server, and front desk type roles maybe you just have a template for each of those roles that you can shoot off when you come across a job that you want to apply for. Don’t let perfection be the enemy of good.
For the second one, that’s tough. At the end of the day you really have to accept that you can’t predict everything. Sometimes things just don’t work out, and the best you can do is use it as a learning experience for the next time. If you can’t manage this on your own with your anxiety, then I second @fodderoh’s suggestion for seeking out a therapist.
I’ve been told multiple times things like:
- if there is a tiny misspelling or wrong grammar it would look like I don’t care for the job.
- the employee knows if the letter is unique, they know by how it’s written.
- the application must stand out from the crowd, nearly everyone looks identical and uninteresting.
Side note: For a while, I had a red panda drawn on my cv in a desperate attempt to be unique, I was quite proud and everyone said it was good. A few years later I think it’s ugly af and I even feel a bit of shame for using it. It feels like everyone lied about it looking good.
I hope the second one will calm down as I get used to being in this system and I know how it will be. I’m having a “start-up” meeting next week.
they all give the same default answer
Which is?
Knowing what you’ve been told before will help to make sure we don’t just give you the same advice you’ve already gotten
Regardless, have you considered finding a therapist? A professional may be more effective at helping you to work through this anxiety.
The default answer is shallow-ish answers on how to write a CV or personal letter or how to act during an interview. Even when I ask for more details they just repeat the same stuff.
It’s like googling “how to write a cv” or “how to act at an interview”.
I’ve been following their advice and working really hard but still only get summer jobs for a few months. They tell me how good my applications are and that I’m brilliant and kind and that I’m going to do soooo well. So why is it so goddamn hard to get a job…
I have been thinking about seeing a therapist, we’ll see how my income will be as I might not be able to afford it.
I used to get crazy nervous during interviews. I’d forget the most basic things, my legs would literally shake when asked to do demos (very typical during interviews in my profession). I then had an opportunity to interview for a job I did not need and wasn’t even sure that I wanted. That was the most relaxed interviewing experience I have ever had and I’ve tried to recapture that ever since with various degrees of success.
Before the interview I psych myself up with mantras like “They are not interviewing you, you are interviewing them.” or “‘I’m not sure, I’ll have to look into that and get back to you’ or even ‘I don’t know’ is an acceptable answer.” “Relax, breathe, and be yourself. It’s only a conversation.” type of things.
That with some slow breathing exercises right before going in really helped. Maybe something similar would help you?
I’ve always hated interviews, especially as you say, when I want the job I can barely do the interview and when I don’t really care, it goes almost smooth as butter. Which is the opposite of what everyone tells you to do, kinda.
I’ve also realized I’ve probably misunderstood some questions, you know the classic “Where do you see yourself in x years?” previously I would always talk about getting a house and dogs and a nice garden… That is not what they meant but I never dared to ask.
I get some bad anxiety with job hunting as well. For interviews, arrive early, you’ll have to learn how to gauge how early, but for me I like to park 30 mins before. I then sit in my car, ask a couple questions to myself, final check I have what I need, and then I set an alarm for about 8 mins before I want to be at the front desk. And I spend the time until that alarm, calming myself down. Reassuring myself that if it’s the right job it will work out and they will see what I can offer. Reassuring myself that I am what I am and I am not going to improve enough to matter in the next minutes I have till my alarm. I empty my thoughts, and accept that it can go either way and that will be OK. Sometimes I lay my head back and listen to music, but in all cases I find a way to relax before going into the interview, alarm goes off, grab things, get out of car, adjust clothing, and go for it, reassuring myself I can do nothing more to prepare. Which is a different sentiment than I did all I could because I can reason that I could’ve done more. But if I’ve done all I can, it let’s it be final. Maybe I could’ve done more, but I’m done now and this is it and that’s OK.
Kind of a lot to describe a very small process but that little pre interview ritual let’s me be OK with things, ready or not, I am what I am. Good luck with your search!
But there is a lot. Thank you!
It’s really comforting to know I’m not alone in this.
You are absolutely not alone. I’m applying to Sr. and lead positions at this point in my career, and I’ve been nervous every single time I’ve interviewed anywhere. I don’t think it’s about to stop either because my most current job was my most nerve wracking. You aren’t alone, and you’ll be OK. 🙂
It may also help to remind yourself that you want the kind of job that wants you back. That will become clear later on in your career, but finding a job that wants you and not just a warmish body makes a huge difference in how you feel after you start the job.
I think I know that feeling, when a job wants me. I’ve never experienced it before. The boss acted different than the others, it felt like he was really rummageing through his brain to find a way while the others just shruged it off.
I had a trainee period at a company nerby (through school). They work mostly backend but want to expand to frontend development but haven’t managed to get a job deal with another yet.
What has worked for me and may or may not help you (also lived in Sweden) is that I write down questions to ask and I go through them multiple times. I also write down questions I think they will ask and then answer them in a very thoughtful way so I can later deliver them in a shorter version but till get a across what I want. I also bring the notebook with me so I can read them at the interview or take notes. Taking notes are great if they have a multiple stages kind of interviews.
Also I put myself in the mind set of “this interview is for me and them to get to know each other and get a feeling if this is for me”. That kinda removes a lot of the stress. I am there for me and my self and here to interview them as much as they are there to interview me. Also many first check the personality, my current job told me later that after the interview they ask everyone “would I like to hang out with this person”. Many good bosses have said “personality can’t or is hard to change and knowledge and experience is something you can easily obtain”.
So you should also try to see if the workplace you try to be hired as is even a nice place for you to be at. I have so far liked small companies the best with 20 to 50 employees.
I have been on the other side of the table to (not in the room but helped my coworkers and asked them questions about the interview afterwards) and a lot of them are just as nervous or unprepared as the one seeking the job.
My dad told me that he thinks like this when he is holding a meeting for higher ups “they all shit in the same bathroom as me today”. I don’t know if that helps but it is kinda the same things as I what I tried to say above. Good luck! :D
God morgon 😊
I often get this feeling that if I don’t get this job I’m gonna end up homeless and die. So it’s practically life or death. Which is not true of course.
I’ve tried the notebook thing before, (it didn’t go well as I didn’t write fast enough) but maybe I should give it a go again! The only times I’ve asked the interviewer questions back have been to requesting companies and they seem to have very little knowledge about the company they work for.
Maybe a part of my job hunting is bad luck? That and just nervousness/anxiety.
That is so true but I have a really hard time relaxing at an interview, I think next time I might ask to have at least part of the interview in another setting than their office. I think the context might make me extra nervous. After my autism diagnosis, I’ve learned I’m probably very understimulated during interviews.
I’ll try to keep this in mind, I’m in a new chapter of my life, and things will be different.
Smaller companies often seem to be more cozy than big ones, I agree.
I got a feeling that you might be a developer so I did check your other comments on Lemmy and saw that you’re working fullstack. I just graduated as a frontend dev at a ‘YH-utbildning’.
Thank you for your insights!
I do have a LinkedIn account and I already have about 70 contacts, and I try to stay active and comment when I see fit, all to get seen. I also do this thing where I visit the profile of a bunch of people in a company after sending an application in hopes of them seeing the connection, and small things like that.
Academic Work is on my list of websites to update, so I’ll give it some extra time to see if the same support is available. Thanks!
I’m not good at writing and listening at the same time 😅
I’m not in Stockholm unfortunately, I’m in a fairly small place called Arvika in Värmland. I think Oslo is a bit closer than Stockholm haha
I’m open to moving tho, but I’m not sure how to get a decent apartment in or close to Stockholm, I have a partner and two cats so I can’t take just anything
40-50% seems high, even for a 28yo, but I don’t know your situation. I find job hunting to be horrific, despite always doing well in interviews.
The reason I do well is because I target the job I want, then mask and overprepare like an absolute psychopath for however long it takes … so I wouldn’t necessarily recommend that.
I’m mostly on the other side of the desk these days, and interviewing other people has revealed a lot about the process. One thing I learned (about senior-level knowledge workers, at least) is that people are often looking for a good fit as much as a person’s capability.
I don’t know what industry you’re in, I’ve been in frontend development and now UX design, and many designers fail to demonstrate soft skills - flexibility of process, communication, emotional intelligence, etc. That doesn’t make up for everything, and some ND individuals find that very hard, but it can be learned.
My point is, I’ve seen many good people miss out because they misjudge how they’re being assessed.
I think I where unemployed so much because I used to be so insecure thinking things like “I have nothing to give this company” I acted like I was sorry for breathing the same air as others and I’ve been scared to say my wants and needs or almost anything at all because I never knew when I would be scolded. (it’s a bit more complex than that, but that’s a story for another time)
So I’ve always agreed to those around me and followed along.
But not anymore, after I moved away from home and later got my autism diagnosis, I’m much much better at everything tbh.
I am a frontend dev now, previously I was an electrician (never got a job as that) and a forklift driver, I do have some experience with that.
I like to think my softskills are fairy good but it might take some more time for a NT to see them as I express them in a different way and usually not as obvious. I think.
People don’t often give clear answers when asking about these things.
I’ve been thinking about asking to have the interview (or part of it) outside their office, like, if we take a walk or something just to get out of that stiff and understimulating room.
Oh cool ok, so we’re in a similar area of work and it’s great that you’ve got a diagnosis and that it’s been positive. Autism was pretty prevalent within my previous team, my best developers happened to be somewhere on that spectrum. I suspect it was more on the end of what used to be called Asperger’s. Those individuals’ ability to apply logic and learn/focus deeply, hugely outweighed any social inhibitions or accommodations we needed to make.
My tactic for the last 5 or so years has been to appear to care a bit less. I overprepare to give myself confidence, but I’ve noticed a pattern - the more relaxed I appear, the more successful I am. Probably not helpful advice because it’s easier said than done, but I do suffer with high anxiety, and worrying more just causes me to worry more.
Being up-front about your communication style helps. I’ve had people start an interview by saying they’re nervous, and that’s visibly helped them to relax. I’ve had others tell me they can come across as blunt, and that’s good to know, and wasn’t off-putting.
Asking for the accommodation of getting out of the office would come across well to me. It says you know yourself, you’re confident enough to ask, and it’s only a request - they can say no (though that also serves as a good measure of how accommodating they will be).
Autism now a day has 3 levels which are used to describe how much support one needs afaik. level 1 is no or little support, which is where Aspergers is. Levels 2 and 3 require a lot of support, idk much about the levels tho.
I’ve noticed that too, when I don’t take it as seriously I’m also more relaxed and that makes me do better.
It’s really hard to not care about something important, I kinda feel like I’m going to be dead before the year ends if I don’t manage to get a job. It’s not true of course, but that’s how important it feels.
I like to say I’m nervous too.
I’m not sure how to describe my communication style, I’ll have to read about that! _
That’s comforting to hear, do you think I should ask before the interview, at the beginning, or both?
