ChicagoCommunist [none/use name]
TW: intrusive thoughts
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Trying to do anything with intrusive thoughts
Middle of a conversation
Let’s think about the most horrible thing I could say and possible repercussions, instead of the topic at hand.
Having sex
It would be really awkward if I got fixated on an image of my grandpa and literally couldn’t get him out of my mind, hope that doesn’t happen. Better focus really hard on not thinking about that or a traumatic thing from my past or the terrible things happening around the world or-- shit I’m not enjoying this anymore.
Putting silverware away
Definitely don’t want to wedge one of these between my teeth and pry it around. Gotta be careful not to skoop out my eyeballs too. Fuck I’m gonna finish later
Driving anywhere
The difference between me surviving this drive and not is a very slight angle change with my hands on the wheel. Literally turn the wheel a quarter of an inch and I die. Gotta grip it extra hard to make sure I don’t decide to do that.
Buncha pigs gonna spontaneously overdose reading the word “fentanyl” in the title
Business insider doing accidental praxis.
Sure, but I’d hope the amount of work they’ve put in has earned them some degree of good-faith interpretation. It’s difficult to put concepts into words, especially in the heat of the moment, so sometimes using a “vibe” as a shorthand signifier has to do.
Not to mention this debate has been ongoing for months or years, in various forms, so every statement has a depth of potential implications and contexts that aren’t gonna be obvious to everyone.
“Cishet white guy behavior” is perfectly understandable to me as shorthand for the in-group/out-group superiority/inferiority complex that’s plagued this site since the beginning, but I’ve been here continuously from the beginning. It’s a poor signifier for users who haven’t been here the whole time (whether new users or old users that left for a while) or even people with a different perspective/experience of the site.
It’s poorly worded but the dunk culture that we inherited from Reddit is a close relative to the “SJW compilation” shit. If you think the only problem with that is the people and ideas it targets, then Hexbear’s dunk culture isn’t a problem.
I personally think the underlying mechanism of dunk culture, though, is fostering a superiority complex out of in-group out-group dynamics, which is directly harmful to us as leftists. The whole “bullying works” nonsense is reddit shit that does not translate to the real social groups we all have to interact with. The kind of people we see posted in the dunk tank are often gonna be similar to the kind of people we have to agitate and educate in real life. And walking into those interactions with an internalized in-group justifying our superiority just serves to isolate us more than anything.
There’s always been a split between whether hexbear is primarily an organizing tool or merely a water cooler for leftish people to hang out. It has potential to work as both. But it’s clear that a lot of the unpaid volunteers putting labor into the site would like to imagine their efforts are going somewhere, especially as contradictions heighten in the real world. So when they perceive that a part of the escapist aspect of hexbear is undermining its utility for organizing, it makes perfect sense that they would want to try and change that.
I’m not gonna read through 1500 comments to get an accurate vibe of the response, but I can’t imagine it was entirely pleasant. And when it comes down to it I value the opinions of the unpaid workers significantly more than the opinions of the consumers.
Seems innocuous to me? Neutral and concise way of differentiating. I see similar linguistic patterns pretty much everywhere, in work settings and hobby groups and such.
General words often accumulate particular connotations in specific contexts. That’s just how language works.
Imagine being 71 years old and still having that yearning for your father’s approval look in your eyes
Won’t be me cause I’m not gonna live that long
Really putting the anal in analysis bc the author pulled this straight outta their ass