large_goblin [he/him, comrade/them]
I would buy it for pets if they required meat but I would never consume it myself.
I just remembered Shadows of Doubt, I think that’s the most recent game with this system that I’ve played. It has proc gen cities where every citizen has a job and a sometimes spontaneous daily routine. Every few days a citizen will murder another one and leave behind a trail of evidence. It’s supposed to hit 1.0 this month as well.
Very raw and buggy in places but in ways that leads to more hilarious outcomes. You hide in a freezing vent waiting for someone to head out to the club for them to apparently decide nah not tonight 2 seconds after leaving the building and catch you in the middle of reading their emails.
I think about Oblivion and it’s NPC scheduling far too often. It feels like the missing piece in otherwise amazing games like Deus Ex MD or Pathologic 2.
I remember MGS V had elements of this. Guards would patrol, be relieved at certain times, there was scheduled transports of prisoners and resources. If you knocked out an entire base of guards at night eventually the morning shift would turn up and start waking them up, putting the base on alert.
Geopolitics is just a map painting game to these people. When your borders are bigger thats good. Why would you not want your borders to be bigger? Graduated from Total War university with a PhD in Medieval 2 crusade strategies.
I cannot agree with the idea of them being the “same thing”. Potentially related? High cormorbidity? Sure.
I have AuDHD and the two have been in conflict my entire life. Since I began medication for ADHD I’ve finally begun to understand how my autism actually presents and that I can comfortable live with it.
Before this I constantly encountered executive dysfunction because the two have been completely opposed.
A special interest? A desire to understand something on an extremely detailed level? An important work project that I’m both motivated to complete and will help advance my career?
Nope here’s an overwhelming urge to do literally anything else, we got the happy brain feeling from starting that, it’s been 5 minutes and it’s time to chase a new one.
Even sensory overload or uncomfortable feelings. Hey you want to be reminded of the time you touched something gross when youre trying to fall asleep? Or the time you ate something and it made you feel sick. Or the most anxiety inducing sound on loop in your brain. Since I started medication these intrusive thoughts have stopped almost entirely. ADHD was turning the most uncomfortable aspects of my autism against me for absolutley no personal gain.
I make a meltdown post on hexbear, delete it shortly after, scream into the void and then play hexcraft for 8 hours straight.
I did the opposite and made a well spaced out organised city where noone could get to work on time, so it’s time for me to learn the ins and outs of transit and travel time or embrace the shitbox I guess.
I was in a very similar place for most of the past year, and I’m not entirely out of it. Some of those feelings have gone away, but others have not. I didn’t get things back together by myself, it was the support of others that allowed me to start healing.
I hope things will get better for you, and this community (including me) is here for anything you need to keep going and start moving towards a better place. If you just want to talk, for someone to listen, people to play games with or whatever helps take your mind off things or helps you work through everything please reach out. That includes material assistance too.