So, I am a minor, at this point almost 100% a trans woman and I sometimes suddenly have these urges when I am with either of my parents to tell them. I know they are transphobic and most likely wouldn’t accept me, but I still get this feeling and I hate it.
Sorry to hear that :( Being unable to live your authentic life is incredibly frustrating and demoralizing.
It gets easier and better as you get older and parents/other people have less control in your life.
I am quite a bit older than you, and frequently experience the opposite problem as a cis gay man. Coming out to literally everyone in life is somewhat exhausting and is why I have a slight preference for queer spaces these days.