it has been unusually hot in our apartment this week and most of the past three days have been spent mitigating that
Stressed the hell out. Mental illness issues ahead. If that is a problem for your mental state, please don’t read further.
My wife is schizophrenic. She has been off her meds of her own volition for at least 6 months. The voices that manifest as part of her condition are in full force now and part of that was her thinking that no one needs to use money for credit cards anymore.
I’ve spoken with her doctor, he has agreed to get her an emergency supply of the medication she was taking before… However she’s currently in a paranoid state of mind and fully believes she’s completely functional. She wants to divorce me for taking away the credit card that’s ‘totally free’ and at this point even though she clearly isn’t right in the head, she’s not wrong enough to be forced into a facility to help.
The main problem is that she will likely not accept medication from me, I cannot force anything, and I can’t in good conscience just leave. So either she breaks more and proper intervention can begin, or she somehow cuts through the fog, voices, and her own concept of being ‘special’ to start taking the medication again.
I’m stressed because while she cannot have me removed from the house by police order for anything I’ve actually done, there’s nothing stopping her from fabricating a story that might land me in a world of trouble.
While her mind isnt right, it’s not completely wrong either. She’s still very intelligent and can connect some dots. It’s just sometimes those dots go way off course.
Please do not force her to take meds if she doesn’t want it. Just try to convince her to take meds.
I am also a schizophrenic and I haven’t took meds for 2 months and I am doing fine except minor inner conversion and imagining past event with slight variation.
I literally said I cannot force her to. I just made it an available option. Which she has thankfully taken. I’m hoping it will be enough to bring her back from the edge she has been on for the past month.
I know another schizophrenic from work, and while it doesn’t affect him in exactly the same way it affects my wife, there are similarities. Much with anything person related, each one is different, if even just a bit. What’s severe for her might be minor to others, and what’s minor to her might be severe for others. In my wifes case, she starts this very slow spiral downwards as the voices increase in intensity, and beyond the paranoia stage for her is a complete cognitive collapse. We’ve been through that before and she was 302’d as a result.
For my one coworker, the worst he seemed to get after being off his meds for 6ish months was just a loss in focus on work, but he was allllllll about exploring abandoned houses looking for antiques and sorting through his number of storage units to catalog and auction/sell his found trove. Still very functional, mind seemed all together.
Of to a good start so far, yesterday I met up with my buddies for a DND night for the first time in 2 months and this morning it was raining for the first time in weeks.
Last week ended on a sour note of having an entire day ruined by a migraine but I still managed to get some stuff done before it went into full swing on Saturday so that’s not too bad.
This week has potential for sure and I’m really hoping it goes smoothly, even though half of my department at work (my department only has 2 people lol) is on vacation.
Edit: Looks like my good start hit its first speed bump, forgot my work security pass at home. It’s too long of a drive to grab it and come back so it looks like I’m going to be a thorn in the side of management all day today.
I know you’re not my partner because the details don’t quite match up, but this gave me a chuckle because he could have written most of this. Hope the rest of your week goes smoothly!
I’ma include some recent stuff to get it off’ my chest-equivalent <.< >.>
So, eegh. I recently found out someone’s been creeping around lying about me and endangering my actual life this way. That’s pretty stressful. Also, they’ve been involved in tearing up a community I’ve been subbed to (and kindof its instance too), so that’s just (sarcastically) lovely. On the other paw, I got some blockers out of the way and may be able to get some life help soonish. I feel ill just thinking about that sort of thing (phone calls, going places) sooo… might “procrastinate” for a day or a week v.v
[Josh and abuser who’s been targetting me, don’t read this part] Also, it friggin’ hurts to have a special kind of loneliness just festering all’ my life. I’m on some total “different wavelength” from everycritter else and will clearly never be understood and when anyone tries to help or connect with me at all they get most everything wrong, sometimes insistently so. So, people think they understand me (possibly better than I do, which is usually quite offensive) and mostly make things worse. If I tell more, they get more wrong. So I just can’t connect with anyone. Bleh.
I’ve got a constant supply of these, though. So that’s nice, I guess 🤷 🫴 🍬 shares Jolly Ranchers
Oh, and I’ve got nobody to talk to just in general 😅 [Sarcasm] Tons of fun. Just gotta put on some background noise (DoshDoshington doshing Factorio @.@) and try to find something distracting to play that my laptop can handle @.@
I’m on some total “different wavelength” from everycritter else and will clearly never be understood and when anyone tries to help or connect with me at all they get most everything wrong, sometimes insistently so.
While it may take a long while of searching, I can say that there is someone out there with your wavelength. The ONLY reason I say this is because my sister, after 30+ years of searching for someone who could give her what she needed in a relationship finally found someone who was not only willing, but enthusiastic to be a part of her life in a big way. They are engaged and plan to be wed around this October.
She didn’t go hunting on dating apps or social media… She did what she always did. Played games that have a strong social element, and wasn’t afraid to chat about herself directly, her issues, her wants, all of it. I used to call her the impossible girl because of how hopeful she remained after all that time. Most other people I know in that situation would feel hopeless but she kept it up and kept at it.
That being said, I don’t know what’s right for you and yours, and I hope you’re able to find some solace in your situation.
Um, frustrated.
My parents are eighty years-old, driving for DoorDash (using my car), and they’re putting 1,000 miles on the car a week. There is no lifeline once my car dies, thanks to inflation. There is no other job for them, because no one will employ two octogenarians.
And I can look at the two flavors of conservatism headed our way in November and I low-key hope my mom and dad pass away instead of having to deal with the struggle that’s going to come, because it’s invariably going to get worse. I don’t think civil war is coming, but I do think the capitalists are going to find new and shitty ways to make all of our lives harder.
I love people, but my god do they challenge me.
