And it has all kinds of implications and context and shit.
How the fuck am I supposed to tell what’s just people doing things at random and what’s a part of all-singing-all-dancing-shit-show the neurotypicals call “social norms”? Down with NTs.
Honestly while it’s really fucking annoying that refusal to participate could result in some silly neuronormo interpreting a completely innocuous action as an offense, and it can cut you off from social shit, I think it’s basically the only way. The same button never does the same thing twice. Screeching rn.
Overly Convoluted Social rules feels like a drag to everyone. I feel like people who enforce it just want to feel superior. This guy did a great example of interaction of me wanting to pull my hair cause of the stupid subtly of it. https://youtu.be/IpUYn6ExxGc?5XdTzrPjGMFposa4
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you cant do epic shit with basic people. and people that cant even do basic shit somehow think they are entitled to be part of epic shit.
I actually don’t mind the arbitrary rules that make no fucking sense because most of my rituals themselves are also completely arbitrary that also make no fucking sense if I try to explain it to other people. Even NTs find rituals comforting I guess. I used to despise their arbitrary rules, but now I’m mostly amused by it. For example, NTs respond really well to you saying “bless you” when they’re sneezing for some reason. Two simple words means you care a lot about their wellbeing apparently.
I gave up on that shit long ago, I just don’t care. My mom always gives me flack for it, because I’m either loud, or weird, or “inappropriate”. Fuck you. I’m going to be direct as fuck or joke about your NT “politeness”. Either open yourself up or I’m going to bully you for being a cowardly fake. Do trauma dump, do tell me how actually are you and not that “fine” shit, be forth and honest with me, don’t interrupt a liar with “Um, excuse me good sir. It seems your trousers are alight.” but with your favorite edition of animal feces (In Poland we say “Gówno prawda” or “Pierdolisz”). I had enough of these social cues and I’ll aggressively fight them and struggle against them. I’m not tolerant of them.
I’m polite in my own ways, ways NTs consider “impolite”. Well then they don’t fucking know impolite.
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This comment goes so fucking hard, best Lumalo post I’ve ever seen twice in one day. Based as hell, I wish I fought against these that hard, I’m too awkward alas. NTs SHOULD be bullied for being cowardly fakes!!
Wait. May I have AuDHD?
:oh-noes: oh fuck why, maybe that’s why my ADHD tends to be really weird
Completely destroyed my own sanity by memorising a complex set of rules and over analysing everything to the point of mental exhaustion only to still get it wrong or be left in such an ambiguous state I can never know the true answer.
The same button never does the same thing twice.
I remember years ago wondering why interaction wasn’t deterministic and asking over and over “what is wrong with me” practically to the brink of suicide. Didn’t actually figure out I was autistic until recently. Honestly the only thing that helped was becoming racist to NT’s and masking only enough to basic interactions and work related shit. I only have 1 NT friend but he’s built different and genuinely tries his best to understand me in a way that he can be accommodating to my needs.
I also had a friend who would confuse me with subtext i never understood knowing it confused me then would call me an idiot for not understanding and i just let them do this to me for years.
