comrade_rain [she/her]

No I feel you on the pronouns. If I hadn’t seen a picture I would use they them as well. And maybe I still should even having seen a picture.

Hey I also really appreciated your analysis in that thread. I read the comment you linked.

He does struggle with a lot of personal stuff. Health/disability issues. Medical cannabis to cope with chronic pain.

Before he was a mod I used to chat with him quite a bit on my lemm.ee alt.

Holy crap the new Zelda game is so cute and giving me that same sense of wonder the first game did when I was a kid. I’m in gamer girl heaven right now.

Yeah, it’s on someone’s YouTube channel. If you search for gender euphoria workbook it should come up.

Chronic pain and dysphoria got me down.

But ordered a new journal and going to start the gender euphoria workbook videos. Also working through a pain management workbook.

Hoping to get my physical health and dysphoria on an upward spiral. Going to bed stoned so I can sleep and waking up inflamed everyday is not the life I want.

Depends on how curious you are. I imagine she did some interviews and stuff too that might have a lot of that stuff in it. Or if you want I could just tell you what I gleaned from it.

If so just reply I guess I’m about to head out though so I won’t have time until I check my socials tomorrow morning.

I highly suggest this whole series and the following one. But exercise six helps with restlessness/worry as well as sloth/torpor.

https://www.buddhistinquiry.org/resources/satipatthana-audio/

Suggestion is to do exercise six so you know where it’s going. Then do the whole series, practicing with one every day for a week.

The series after is this one.

https://www.buddhistinquiry.org/resources/breathing-audio/

Both are based on the Buddha’s own practice and teachings. And the meditation instructor is a well respected scholar of early Buddhism.

The short answer is, when sleepy or dull recall that you’re going to die on the in breath. Let go on the out. If restlessness is present, pay more attention to the out breath.

I quit dreaming at some point last year. Suppressing nightmares I think.

I started dreaming again recently. And had a very vivid one night before last that was pleasant.

Had an argument with my gf last night, we worked everything out but apparently I had some lingering emotions.

Had a nightmare last night that a very manipulative exgf was hanging out with my current gf. I think some of it’s brainworms and doubts. As that was a lot of the narrative manipulative ex was pushing about me.

I need to find a gender therapist. I like my current one but she’s cis and treating early transition people isn’t her wheelhouse.