comrade_rain [she/her]
Hi trans mega! Was posting under a different name here related to my deadname and had to let that go. Was trying to hang onto the past.
Finally settled on a first and last name a few days ago. And it’s alleviated so much doubt and dysphoria.
Feeling comfortable in my skin and loving being trans. Love wearing beautiful outfits. Love the presence of being tall and confident and trans. Finding more safe spaces and letting more bullshit go.
Love my trans comrades! Thanks for the help with the awkwardness of my freshly cracked egg the last few months.
Got some books from my gf for a recent birthday. (Also a new dress from my sister and mom! And some white docs I gifted myself. Paid $40 at Ross!)
Anyway, books! The Origins of Totalitarianism, Bodies That Matter, and Nevada.
I’m devouring Nevada like I’ve been starved of good literature. Going to have to read it a second time so I can savor it more. So fucking good.
Edit: holy crap the dress has pockets!
subcutaneous estrogen personal timeline
Subcutaneous without an androgen blocker has been good to me.
I am on week 7 I believe. Already showing some boobage. Testicles are way smaller. Sex drive is way different. Much less reactive and defensive (i.e. more likely to cry than get mad). Skin softer. Face more feminine (a laser session helped).
I am having some sensitivity around injection sites. Going to try my thighs instead of my stomach next time. Inject more slow and gentle, see if that helps.
Overall really happy and surprised by the progress. Feeling so glad I started on it.
subcutaneous injections, nsfw
I’m doing subcutaneous injections without an antiandrogen.
Within a week my ejaculation was clear.
Seven weeks in my testicles are back to pre-puberty size. This may have happened sooner but I noticed just last week.
Libido is much less frustrating. Aggression in check. Boobs growing.
I haven’t had my levels checked but so far the results are way better than I expected.
Other people’s timelines will of course be differet. But if you can handle injections it might be another option rather than bumping or switching antiandrogens.
A lady I know was having issues and so she had her testicles removed. That helped her a lot too.