Started off pride month practically in heat. Spent the last few days having a bunch of gay sex. Emotions be going wild, not sure what’s up. I feel kinda all over the place lately. Maybe I need a day to myself to introspect? Honestly not sure.
Hey, that’s not Alyaza! (ik they’re probably busy with other stuff ty wallet for making this)
Tried to unalive myself two weeks ago, since then I’ve just been on autopilot. Last week we changed out our core switches at work. What was supposed to be a 2-hour late-night jam ended up a) getting delayed by several hours because our ER had a last-minute critical patient come in, and b) turning into a fucking 25-hour slog of our firewall deciding it was sick of our BS and taking down literally everything with it. Between that extra-long shift and my being kept up for 30 hours in an ER the previous week, my sleep schedule is absolutely toast.
Bad. Rent is going up so I have to leave town. Probably not going to school anywhere near as soon as I planned because I don’t foresee being able to cut hours anytime soon.
I don’t even want to do all this capitalist bullshit, but I also wish I’d done it years ago so I could be stable now.
weekend before last was a two-day agility/rally training event for the dogs. they all did wonderfully! didn’t manage to get a good video of loki, but i got a few of the others.
- jean: agility
- echo: agility — her first full course!
- echo: rally obedience — her first go at this sport!
we also took the dogs trailer camping this past weekend, which they (and we) enjoyed.
good grief, youtube compression was not kind to your dogs but they are still very cute
Not good, as usual. My poor sweet cat is suffering and I don’t have the money or resources or ability to do anything about it. I’m tired of being useless because of my disabilities and I’m tired of being so burned out and in pure survival mode all the time. I wish I had the energy/functioning/mental bandwidth to put some words down about what’s actually going on. If anyone wants to send some good vibes or thoughts or prayers or whatever in the direction of my sweet kitty Ziggy and I, I’d appreciate it. She deserves so much better.
