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Talk about what’s happening queerly in your life - like coming out, getting HRT, questioning, and all that good stuff.
hii hope everyone’s having a good week
After a year or so of thinking I was androgeneous I finally decided to explore my alt side and an awful lot of questions came with that. Before, it was kind of in the back of my mind like “haha wouldn’t it be so cool if you could dress/act/love like that? oh well” and now it’s at the forefront of my mind. I have read some of the literature in the faq on here and quite a lot of it resonates with me. I think I have a lot more exploring to do but it’s quite exciting
I finally feel very certain that I want an orchiectomy. I’ve always been very wary of surgery, but even thinking about my testosterone levels being wrong causes me too much anxiety and I’ve talked with a few friends who had it done, which eased my fears.
Now I have to navigate how to actually get it done. I have good insurance, but haven’t even set up my primary care yet.
Also painted my nails pink and I really like it. I came out 14 years ago but never painted my nails. Turns out I like it and should do it more.
I’ve been struggling with whether to get an orchi. I hate having the damn things and used to think that I’d probably be okay with having the other thing, but recently I began tucking on occasion and I feel so much more confident and just generally more at peace with my body when I have a good tuck going. So now I’m worried I might be unsatisfied in the long run so I’m questioning whether I want an orchi or vaginoplasty :/
So now I’m worried I might be unsatisfied in the long run so I’m questioning whether I want an orchi or vaginoplasty
Wait, is that like an either or thing? Does getting an orchi interfere with vaginoplasty?
I’ve heard that scrotal tissue shrinking can be an issue re: having enough material to work with, but I haven’t actually researched this stuff since the 2000s so techniques may have improved.
Things ended out getting worse at home, I’m going to be kicked out sometime in the next few months. I’m having some trouble finding housing and a job for when that happens though since it’s mid-school year and not a lot’s available, especially for my budget.
But I have my HRT and it’s made me feel a lot better. 2mg E and 50 mg Spiro. I’m taking the E sublingually but I feel like I keep messing it up when I do? I salivate too much and have to swallow but I feel like swallowing will somehow fuck me over in the long run so I end out with this uncomfortable middle ground of way too much saliva in my mouth before I swallow it anyways. Is there any particular way to fix this or is it just completely normal?
Overall for the effects I’ve mostly just noticed my head feeling clearer, as well as the libido plummeting already. Both are nice though.
Oh and my E is purple. That was genuinely really exciting for me for some reason.
I’m not sure I’ve had that issue with sublingual E but I know people who just don’t take it sublingually and just swallow the tablets and they are fine on E so I think your method with swallowing down the saliva is fine. I wish you the best of luck with finding housing and a job <3
Are there any friends who you might be able to crash with if things come to the worst? That might be what you have to do
Estrogens all have a very strong first pass metabolism when taken orally. The liver breaks down most of the stuff, which not only reduces efficiency and is a strain on the liver, but also increases risk of blood clots (most of the panic about HRT risks comes from this). This is why sublingual is a good deal safer and more efficient and why other routes like transdermal or injections are generally preferrable, but oral is ok if you regularly get bloodwork done and don’t have other blood clot risks (age, smoking, weight etc.)
Yeah I have friends that I’ve been discussing this with who I’d be able to stay with we just aren’t sure how long-term of a solution that would be. So I’m treating it as a temporary stop gap in case I get kicked out before whatever apartment I find accepts me in.
Things have been super mixed for me recently. My now-ex and I broke up shortly after I came out, but we promised to stay best friends. But she recently did something that left me feeling really betrayed, in a “this will probably end our friendship” kind of way. And when that happened, I realized that there aren’t any cishet people who knew me pretransition and aren’t in my family who haven’t quietly cut ties or hurt me. And that really hurts.
But on another level I feel so happy with myself. My gf and I were playing heavily modded Skyrim and we came upon a modded quest we didn’t know about that involved helping a trans woman magically transition. And it was well written in a way that told me this was absolutely written by a transfem. And I had the startling realization that at this point, I wouldn’t use her spell myself. It’d be nice to have easy bottom surgery but like, I’m comfortable with where my body is now besides that. I’m even comfortable with my voice that I decided not to train. And god, that’s such a nice feeling, to be out of the hell that is early transition and in a better place re: my self image. I feel alive in a way I never had before
